God whispers…

What will become of your stories?

Gardens or graves?

This is the question that God is always nudging you to answer.

What will become of this story inside your chest?

Will you excavate it from your bones,
give it light,
and water,
and air?

Let it bloom into a garden of flowers in God’s name?

Or will you let it stay and let the enemy bury you?

If you are in this conversation with God,
you are in the right place.

Together, we grow graves into gardens,
and Bloom Beyond ourselves.

Christ is the photosynthesis of our healing

By His grace, I know God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Halleluja.

I know that it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives through me.

I know he is calling me to consciously create and give Him glory by telling my story.

I know He is calling me to turn graves into gardens.

Before this happened, God has allowed me to wilt and fall before I came to take root, rise, and bloom on a new foundation…

The foundation of Christ.

You are here because God is calling your name, and I am here for you.

Together in Christ, we commit to sowing mustard seeds of faith that move mountains

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Together in Christ, we commit to sowing mustard seeds of faith that move mountains ✞

The Way I Serve Through Christ In Me

Each Sunday, Receive
The Sunflower Selah

A sacred pause to turn toward God.
Let the Lord bless you,
and keep you,
the Lord make his face shine on you
and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace 🌻
(Numbers 6:24-26)

My Testimony

Atheist > New Ager > Christian

“And they have conquered him [the enemy] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, for they loved not their lives even unto death.”

Revelations 12:11

I didn't grow up a Christian, I grew up as an atheist. I was an only child. My parents let me explore my gifts and interests at an early age, and I quickly found out I loved horses. I became a high performer in this field.
I started expressing the pain of being bullied at school through creativity. My outlet was photography, something that has stayed with me to this day.
The biggest impact on me as a youth was the non-profit "COURAGE". It had us all gather together. It spoke truth into my life and reminded me to have courage to live life, courage to say no, and courage to care about others.
At one point as a teen, because I didn't know my identity in Christ, I became a fashion blogger finding identity in looks and materialistic things.
I started becoming rebellious, finding happiness in the bottle, being sexually open without boundaries, and seeking affirmation from men.
Growing up with social media and always expressing myself online, I became an influencer. I soon found my value and worth in my body and through being a high achiever in school. My mentality was that "success comes to those who work their ass off."
Once I was done with high school, I started travelling the world, thinking that this would be where freedom would be found. I went to all the places you can think of. South Africa, India, Thailand, Bali, Australia, Fiji, USA, Hawaii, Ecuador, Peru, M
As I was travelling, I got into my first true toxic relationship with a psychopath that had 3 identities. It messed with my mind. That relationship also brought me into personal development and yoga. I started doing it every day for years, hoping it
I got certified in a bunch of modalities and spent more than $400.000 USD on all the courses, certifications, and coaching out there. Got certified in life coaching, emotional freedom techniques, hypnotherapy, time techniques, rapid transformational
I drop out of Clinical Psychology at University to "build a life of freedom" through course creation online. I pulled back from social media, moved into my parents house, and invested 2,5 years in solitude, to build the Bloom Beyond Perfectionism pro
I continue to live an extravagant lifestyle of travel with my boyfriend at the time. To him it was all about the worldly success and money. In my spirit I knew this was not were happiness was found. I thought it was found in new age spirituality. Bec
I was honest with him and told him what had happened. This is me breaking into pieces over losing my best friend and being called toxic and damaged last thing. Back then I thought I was liberated, because it all felt good and felt right. Now I realiz
I go home to decide what to do next after this breakup. I refuse to let it change me and my ways, so I continue wearing goddess dresses and living accordingly.
I cut my hair, dye it blond, and book my ticket back to Tulum, Mexico. This time, it's for good, I think. I let go of everything to pursue this dream of living in community with new agers. I have no idea what is awaiting me.
I say bye to my parents who are devastated to see me move all the way to Mexico. I justify it with following "my dream" and again, "creating a life of freedom".
I start hosting community circles, specifically Goddsswap circles, having women come together to swap not only clothes, but healing modalities.
At this point, I have no idea I am basically setting up circles of witchcraft and that we're casting spells, pretending to be God.
Because I plan to stay in Tulum, Mexico, I pour energy and money into painting it sunflower yellow. I am so excited to finally have a vehicle to get me from A to B, from ceremony to ceremony, in town.
Being involved in new age sometimes letting one's life be directed by tarot cards and oracle cards. During a thanksgiving dinner, one of the guests that is a high priestess pulls this card. The cards get shuffled, and I pull it too. The card speaks t
I start seeing Jesus everywhere. I buy myself a Bible, ready to begin reading on January 1st 2023. I was so ready.
On December 28th 2022, I am on my scooter on my way to a birthday to one of the guys I was dating. Yes, I was dating multiple, simultaneously. I'd already heard from God not to continue this compulsive dating, but I still went. I was thinking of what
Jesus reached out his hand when I was most broken. Through the pain, recovery, and ecstacy of healing, He was there. At my most broken, I had the most joy. I felt His love through my community showing up. I felt His grace through my friends helping
After this accident, the Holy Spirit truly entered me. It highlighted all of what was deceptive and untrue, including the way of the new age spirituality.
The hospital bill that I had no money to pay as a result of my new age "going with the flow" lifestyle.
My broken elbow that God miraculously healed.
The Holy Spirit revealed to me through the broken elbow that I am dependent on God in all I do. I use this right hand for the most basic things, as well as my professional work, and here I was, not being able to do any of it.
With time, the hit and marks from the accident started transforming in color until they were gone. The Holy Spirit showed me that God is our healer.
My cat, Light Beam, was there through the whole healing process. God showed me through her that we are never too broken to be loved.
The pain killers I was prescribed to numb the pain from the accident. With each pill I took, I realized how I had numbed myself in so many ways in life, ultimately leading to this point.
First day I could walk again and feel the sun on my skin after a month of being inside. Glory.
I was in the Word of God each day. A book that I had never understood suddenly was Alive. It spoke to my soul. It grew my peace.
Light Beam joined me in reading verses from the Bible.
As soon as I could walk, God gave me the courage to bring women together to "purify" through God, and I shared my story, hoping it would save others in New Age.
The sanctification process was tough. My entire paradigm and world view towards work, relationships, and friendships was changed, and it had me let go of a lot in a short period of time.
As I am going through spiritual warfare, my best friend from high school takes her own life due to lifelong depression, jumping in front of a train. I now know the spiritual battle we all face is very real.
I saw God everywhere around me. He wasn't just pressing into me from beyond, he was pressing into me from inside and outside. This was in on the wall in a cafe. Just a reminder of who He is, "I AM LOVE".
As I left the place that I thought was home, Christ called me home to Him. The cross was visible everywhere. This is in a taxi.
Meanwhile listening to the book "Sacred Marriage" on a trip to Oeiras, Portugal after moving from Tulum, Mexico, I walk into a cross on the beach. His Holy Spirit was truly felt.
The doves, the symbol that God opens the gateways to heaven, are suddenly everywhere.
I see doves in paintings in the street. They're everywhere.
I am being called to create The Garden community and let my service to this planet be rooted in the Holy Trinity.
"Therefore if anyone is in Christ, they are a new creation: old things are passed away; behold, all things are made new." - 2 Corinthians 5:17
I am deeply devoted to Christ. He is my best friend. My healer. My savior. My rescuer from myself.
I re-enter the world as a new creation, one that is of service instead of self-centered, one that is self-sacrificial over egocentric, one that is willing to lay my life down for regular people to know God's love for them.
I commit to serving with my entire vessel wherever I am rooted. I live my hands wide open. Whatever opportunity is laid at my feet, I will discern through the lens of Christ and trust that He is knows the bigger plan. All I can do is sow mustard seed
I know that this verse is a fact. Jesus said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." (John 8:12)
"He put another parable before them, saying, “The kingdom of heaven is like a grain of mustard seed that a man took and sowed in his field. It is the smallest of all seeds, but when it has grown it is larger than all the garden plants and becomes a t

Gardens or Graves?

Gardens or Graves?